.. I hate this feeling..
It's already Dec 1st 2008, 5.40 in the morning n I'm still awake.
God, I hate this feeling.
I hate last night.
I hate me.
For so many times, this awkward feeling got me wondering.
I dun even know whether it's true..!
All night long I filled up my brains w/ many thoughts of him (no, 'us' I mean).
I can't even went up to the bed n shut my eyes, but think.
My girlfriend said, "You yourself gotta find the answer".
But it's not as easy as it sounds..
Desperately, I texted him about a couple hours before dawn.
And threw my phone away.
Finding myself still awake this late, almost sun-rise,
and surprisingly found him buzzing me on the chatt-stuff.
He was surprised too n ask why didn't I reply back.
Silly me, he returned my text right when I was desperately lonely that dawn.
He texted he feel the same way,
but my stupid phone were silent.
N I keep doing stupid thing..
I jz went to see outside for a moment n catch the morning air.
Can't believe it's the sun.
It is the other day, it's not last night anymore.
N I'm still continuing this boring thing in front of this laptop
n him inside.
God, save me alive!
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